Renewed Strength

This morning I awoke downcast, lethargic and with an unexplained weight on my heart. I wondered what was wrong with me (besides being utterly exhausted) and decided to put my priorities straight. What was the most important thing I could ever do in a day? Spend time with God. So while I fed Izaac, I opened my Bible to a Psalm that’s been on my heart (Psalm 94)  and began to sing the verses; as I sang and prayed I felt a weight lift off me and I realized I had been carrying responsibility without a sense of hope or purpose. The Lord reminded my heart that He is soon coming back to rule over the entire earth as its rightful King and I will be working with Him; knowing Him is my purpose and everything I do now is for Him. I began to cry out for His love; to be blameless and pure in the deepest part of who I am; to please Him and be found worthy of His calling. The  responsibilities of life may not have gone away, but the pressure and discouragement did. I can do everything I need to do because Christ strengthens me to do it. He strengthens my physical body, but most importantly my heart. When my heart is burdened and weak life seems overwhelming; but when my heart knows why it exists in life – to know God and love Him and know His love – then although life might be challenging, its not depressing, suffocating, crushing. God is my help whenever I need it! If I were to bury myself in entertainment or food or sleep or worse it would only provide temporary relief for an oppressed heart, but if I expose my heart in honesty before God and let Him take away my burdens then I have found a real solution. God gives perfect answers to my questions, effective solutions to my problems and before I know it everything is okay again; all because I opened my Bible and began to sing. I am looking forward to this day: to getting my checklist checked off, to loving my kids, to “thinking” to God any second I get the chance. How different I feel. Thank You Lord! You have strengthened my heart!

Psalm 94:15 “Judgement will come again FOR the righteous, and those who are upright will have a reward.”